Monthly Archives: December 2010

On the brink

(If you’re new here, start here)
These are the Malvern hills, which we can see from our house windows. Isn’t this path just begging you to follow it?
Our river begins tomorrow. 
I’ve already decided on the word that will guide me during 2011. We’ve bought the ingredients for the bread pudding we’ll be taking to our New Year’s Eve gathering. We’ve arranged to meet friends to walk on the hills later today. 
The New Year is just around the corner. Full of opportunity, bursting with the unknown. There will be hazards as well as wonders. There will be everso-steep parts of the hill as well as stunning views. 
We can make sure we notice it as it rushes past us, one small stone at a time. 

We’re all in the river together. I’m very happy to be in such good company.

Enjoy your days – I’ll see you on the other side : )

My word for 2011 will be…..

Faith.

For me, faith is the opposite of clinging.

I am a human being, and I cling. I cling to wanting things to turn out my way. Not like this, like THIS. More. Different. Smaller. Sweeter.

This year, I would like to practice letting go. Doing my best, and then trusting that I will receive what I need – whether or not I receive what I want. Receiving what I’m given, gratefully. Settling back a little. Breathing out………..

What will your word for 2011 be? Do share it in the comments.

Thank you to Michelle at Peony Moon for this image, which accompanied an excellent post I suggest you pop over and read.

Thank you to Kaspa for being so supportive and lovely over the year – I can’t wait for him to be my husband (June!)

Thank you to everyone who’s got enthusiastic about our river of stones which starts tomorrow - it’s going to be a BLAST. (not too late to join us….)

Thank you to YOU, dear reader, because without you this blog would be words drifting away in the wind.

Have a marvellous New Year and I look forward to spending time with you in 2011. x x x

For when you get scared

Writing can be a thorny business.
I’ve been doing it for many years now. I have four completed novels behind me, a book of poetry, a book of small stones, and a book of questions
The blank page still scares the bejesus out of me. I sit down to write my work-in-progress and think ‘what am I doing thinking I can write? of all the deluded (mumble mumble)….’ I have avoided writing poems for almost a year now. 
Maybe your small stones will leap eagerly and willingly into your laps, but if you’re like the rest of the human race you might also have occasional thoughts like this. 

How can we continue when we’re convinced the whole project is pointless and that everything we ever write is utter rubbish?

By taking a pen and writing a single word. And then another.

Thank your doubts kindly for their input, and continue anyway. Reassure your critic that you WILL allow them out, when you have written your small stone and you want to start polishing it, but not until then.

Writing can be a thorny business. But then so is life.

We are all in it together. The river of stones, and the river of life. We can encourage each other (do visit each other’s blogs next month and say what you like). We can take comfort in the knowledge that every single writer ever has had terrible doubts about what they’re doing. We can learn how to encourage ourselves, and get better at this as we go along. We can eat chocolate. We’ll be JUST fine.

What does your lover smell of? (the fun begins the day after tomorrow)

(if this is your first visit, start here)

“Your lover, does he smell of cedar or pine, or lemon? Or tobacco? Have you ever washed an ashtray and wondered why it is so much more pungent when wet?”

This is Martha, telling her readers about our project. As she says, “…what started as a meditative process could well be a gold mine of writing prompts… or was it the other way round?”. We hope some of you might find inspiration for longer pieces in your stones, and we’d love to see them when they’re done.

Elaine has also signed up with her rather lovely blog – what peonies!

And Olivia wrote such a gorgeous piece, I’m going to share it all here. It heartened me because it describes exactly what I’m hoping for from this project. Do share your experiences of writing small stones with us.

And you know, it doesn’t have to be small stones. That’s just a label. Haiku, short stories, we’re not fussy. Sketching, taking photographs… whatever. Just pay attention.

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“I am going to be writing a ‘small stone’ each day in January – taking notice and observing and writing. On my way to the tube station today, I decide I need to practice. It is a 7 minute walk to the tube station, maybe 6 minutes today, as I run small parts of it, as I don’t want to miss my train. Even so, I notice – the wet, soft brown leaves, mushing on the pavement, concrete resisting their composting; the stump where there used to be a cherry tree that blossomed pink in the spring; the bright red wool hat and luminous yellow jacket of a council worker, giving out and attracting light on this gray day; the yellow lettering on the road in the bus stop bay worn away so that it now reads ‘us stop’; a baby in the warm clear bubble of his pram, incubated as he is perambulated, the father turning around to smile proudly at his – wife? – behind, catching me in the arc of his smile. And I smile back.


Until I am sat on the train, and start writing, and the sounds of words start bumping off of each other, I didn’t know that was how I saw those things – they were just leaves, a stump, a hat, worn-out road signs, a pram. In the writing, I appreciate what I have seen, and what I have been part of. I am confident now that I will be able to pick up and polish at least one small stone a day.”

…crumbling back into soft clay and tiny stones…

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(this is copied from a river of stones – if you want to find out more start here)
Jessica at everything feeds process made this exquisite little journal for her small stones. I’m very jealous. 
People are still signing up for the river and some are getting rather excited about it. I’m glad. We should be excited, because this project is about engaging the world. 
It is not about creating wonderful writing, although that is sure to be a by-product. 
It is not about beating ourselves up if we miss a day or can’t get our small stone to look right. 
It’s about attempting to put all that aside, and be curious in our object, the ‘other’. What does his voice sound like? What is the texture of that crinkled leaf? What does the colour of that bird remind you of? 
What we’re aiming for is to grow small, as Caroline has written below. Let’s dance!
“The world grows. We grow small. Like violets on an old path, the world fills the cracks of our being. We are invaded by life in all its complex beauty and weather into relationship with the material world. We soften. Just as bricks lose their hard edges, their constituents crumbling back into soft clay and tiny stones, so too, we find our resting place in the greater processes of life. No need to defend now. We are surrounded by the light of life, and in it we dance.”

(From Caroline Brazier’s The Other Buddhism)

…crumbling back into soft clay and tiny stones…

(if this is your first visit, start here)
Jessica at everything feeds process made this exquisite little journal for her small stones. I’m very jealous. 
People are still signing up for the river and some are getting rather excited about it. I’m glad. We should be excited, because this project is about engaging the world. 
It is not about creating wonderful writing, although that is sure to be a by-product. 
It is not about beating ourselves up if we miss a day or can’t get our small stone to look right. 
It’s about attempting to put all that aside, and be curious in our object, the ‘other’. What does his voice sound like? What is the texture of that crinkled leaf? What does the colour of that bird remind you of? 
What we’re aiming for is to grow small, as Caroline has written below. Let’s dance!
“The world grows. We grow small. Like violets on an old path, the world fills the cracks of our being. We are invaded by life in all its complex beauty and weather into relationship with the material world. We soften. Just as bricks lose their hard edges, their constituents crumbling back into soft clay and tiny stones, so too, we find our resting place in the greater processes of life. No need to defend now. We are surrounded by the light of life, and in it we dance.”

(From Caroline Brazier’s The Other Buddhism)

Two days… an exercise, and your experiences

Not long to wait now.

If you’d like to get some practice in, here’s an interesting exercise I found via Matt at Morden Haiku – the author has given me permission to link to it here.

If anyone would like to make some notes about the experience of writing small stones, I’d be interested in seeing them – email them through, or blog them, or both. It might be interesting to use some quotes from you all in the introduction to the book we make.

There’s still time to join us… you don’t have to let us know, just start writing small stones on the 1st!

More surrender

Another helpful reminder from whiskey river:

“Peace requires us to surrender our illusions of control. We can love and care for others but we cannot possess our children, lovers, family, or friends. We can assist them, pray for them, and wish them well, yet in the end their happiness and suffering depend on their thoughts and actions, not on our wishes.”
- Jack Kornfield

Surrendering our illusions of control. Phew, easier said than done!

I’m feeling much better – physically and emotionally – just in time for the new year. I hope you had a lovely Christmas and that you’re enjoying this strange time-in-between – more fallow time…

I’m enjoying a couple of new books I got for Christmas – my good friend Sage Cohen’s The Productive Writer (I have an interview with her here on the 8th of January) and a book of selected writings by good old Brenda Ueland.

And more and more drops are joining our river – go see, and think about joining us. It might help you connect with something mysterious

Three days… reaching out beyond our small selves

(if you’re new here, welcome…)
At the moment I’m reading The Other Buddhism by Caroline Brazier, which speaks about Pureland Buddhism – the biggest school of Buddhism in Japan, but still relatively little known here in the West. 
Pureland encourages us to connect with what is ‘other’ – to reach out to that ‘mysterious something’ – what whispers to us when we encounter an awe-inspiring landscape, or a small unexpected comfort. 
What does this have to do with small stones?
Writing small stones is another way of reaching out beyond our small selves to what is ‘other’. 
After encouraging us to investigate a small piece of ground, which will contain an infinite variety of objects (only some of which we can see), Brazier says:
“…even on a material level, the other is a great mystery. When we struggle to relate to it, we fall back into personalised approximations. Keeping our sense of wonder and our willingness to encounter the other requires a special kind of reaching out.”
Whatever your spiritual leanings, we will need ‘a special kind of reaching out’ to find our small stones
And what else might we find?

Four days to go… or five if you’re just waking up (and your help needed)

I hope you all had marvellous Christmasses. We were both feeling a little peaky but we’re on our way to recovery. And we have lots of chocolate-eating to catch up with.
There have been a healthy number of hits on the site today, and we’re getting new people signing up all the time. It’s only four days before we start. How did that happen? 
So for the last push…
Do follow us @ariverofstones on Twitter if you’re not already, and keep letting people know what you’re doing on Facebook etc.
Finally it’d be a great help if you could send this email to ten writers and ten non-writers – choose a few people you think would be interested and a few you’re not so sure about – you never know! 
Thanks for your help, we much appreciate it – it wouldn’t be a river without you, it’d be a little trickle. We’ll be back tomorrow with an exercise to get your writing juices going.  
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Hello – I’m taking part in a new project starting on January the 1st and I thought you might like to join me.

In an attempt to pay more attention, I will be noticing one thing properly every day (a bird eating berries, a child playing in the street) and writing it down. People from across the world will be joining me and we’ll be creating a ‘river’ of these short pieces of writing.

You can write them down in a notebook or on a blog – and it doesn’t matter if you’ve done any writing before or not. The purpose of the project is to help us to pay attention, and to start the year as we mean to go on.

If you’d like to join us find out more at http://ariverofstones.blogspot.com or email fiona@fionarobyn.com for more information.

It’d also be lovely if you could forward this email to five friends you think might be interested.

Thank you!