I spent the weekend with my fellow students on our Buddhist psychotherapy course.
On the drive home, the jeep in front had a sticker on its back window which said, ‘One life. Live it.’
How do we do that? How do we live our one and only life?
The weekend had its share of difficult conversations. Sitting around in a group with people you care about in a safe environment seems to give us all permission to take risks we don’t take in our ordinary lives.
Much of this process is unconscious. I find myself in familiar dynamics, yet again. I feel bruised. I bruise others.
We let our our anger. We get into tangled conversations that go round and round and get tighter and tighter. We play our usual role in groups (in life), and have this reflected back to us by our fellow students. We feel vulnerable. We feel misunderstood.
We uncover our hunger, our fear, our jealousies, our sometimes brutal impulses.
There is a saving grace.
It is that we care about each other.
Many of us have shared previous weeks of fumbling towards understanding each other, towards seeing each other as we really are. We welcome the new members into the fold. We want them to experience some of this grace. It is so delicious. It moves me to tears as I write. It is how we manage to love each other, despite everything.
THIS is how I want to live my life. Fumbling. Human. Trying to love each other.
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Reflect on the fact that we have just this one life. Stay with this thought for as long as you can bear. What is important to you? What do you want to do about it?
How we spend our days is, of course, how we spend our lives.
Gather ye rose-buds while ye may;
Old Time is still a-flying;
And this same flower that smiles today,
Tomorrow will be dying.
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