The course felt like the perfect training for me for a number of reasons. It felt like it would solve a few problems, and bring a great richness to my life over the next two years.
Alongside the excitement butterflies, I was also aware of a different variety. These butterflies didn’t feel so friendly. They felt unsettled, fractious.
I dismissed them and carried on with my plans. This morning, just before I filled in the application form, I got some information which pointed me towards questioning my decision. This little space was enough to let me see how desperately I’d wanted this training to be ‘the answer’. I got suspicious. I realised that it was an attempt to fix something that couldn’t really be fixed.
I might do the training, and I might not, but I’m going to give myself more time and space to decide. Those anxious butterflies were right all along.
My 100 Readers project is up and running!
Come and meet Michelle McGrane, and then Geoff Sawers on Monday, and listen to them talk about dogs, and Angela Carter, and toddlers, and much much more.
If you could help me spread the word about this project it’d be very much appreciated – maybe you could do a little blog post, or email your friends to let them know?
There’s also a Facebook group here – come and say hello.
You can buy the hardback of the book on Amazon UK now, or sign up to be notified when the paperback is available (end of July-ish). And don’t forget The Letters, my first novel – still only a fiver… I don’t want it to feel left out.
Thank you lovely lovely readers.